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Less than one month till exams..T_T

starsya — Sun, 14 Nov 2010 02:54:09 +0000

Ah well.I guess I’m already tired out by this university thing. This semester’s realll crazy.I don’t know how to start.And how to proceed from there. But at least IA’s next sem.I got a company, but I won’t be able to go for floorball recre.Oh well.

Anyway, wordpress is really fun.I can see how people come to my blog.Not that many, but still interesting.Muahaha.Nope.I don’t think anyone will be stalking me anytime soon.But farah!Someone tried to look for your twitter page and found my blog instead..Not that you’re reading this anyway.Considering that I don’t update much.

Maybe I’ll get more traffic if I key in your name more often.Hahahhahha.

Zero<3

starsya — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 17:46:24 +0000

Eh.I’m having a crush on this time again.Probably because I haven’t seen him in a very long time.Find me a boyfriend you dresses so cooly like this can?

I want a HQ of this picture.LOL.

Wishlist

starsya — Fri, 19 Mar 2010 15:29:40 +0000

Surprise me with something you think I’ll need and can use for a long long time..

Or something that I want but I won’t spend those $$$ on them myself..

Or something cool.

Or all of the above.

Haha.

Not helping am I?

Bummed.

starsya — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 12:31:56 +0000

You don’t know pain unless you’re doing engineering.Really.I should go join that facebook group.

I’m studying something that probably has nothing to do what i’m going to do in the future.And it’s not even easy.Why so much effort for something like this? I feel like vomiting blood when I study.Or this is just not me afterall? But there’s nothing I can do but to grin and bear it.-____-.OK.Grin fail! But..I’m still trying for that 4.98.I know.LOL-tastic rite?But.I do need it.

The future is bleak.Unless I start looking for something else to blame my grades on.Say…Floorball? Now that’s and idea.Or a business.Anyone want to pay me to help watch stuff like drama or anime? Haha.Fat hope eh?

I LIKE THIS RESULT!

starsya — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 13:59:26 +0000

you are mediumauqamarine
#66CDAA

Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there’s a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days.

Your saturation level is medium – You’re not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it’s required of you. You probably don’t think the world can change for you and don’t want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people’s. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You’re not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Take it!I think it’s like 98% true! And aquamarine!Lol..that’s pretty close to ultramarine~NOT!

Anyway,paragraph one is pretty me.I do think a lot before making a decision.That’s why probably I can’t be bothered to make a decision on my own,say clothes choices and stuff.And yet, I do feel tired trying to come up with a decision that my heart and mind can accept.

Paragraph 2 is sweet too!It’s all me..=D

Paragraphy 3 is true too..Except for the first sentence.Right now I’m a bit pessimistic about my future after graduation.What will I do with my nonsense degree?How?How?How?When can I start taking care of my parents?*sigh*

Sometimes I wished that I screwed up my life earlier.Then probably I’d have matured faster.Started working earlier.Have a mundane 9-5 job.Not earning enough.But trying hard to make ends meet.The harder I work, the harder the obstacle to overcome.I feel like I’ve jumped over so many hurdles that now I can’t be bothered to jump.I’m just crashing through.The penalty points doesn’t matter.I just wanna reach the finishing line.No matter what it takes.

But will I really make it?Even if I did,with the bruises and scrapes,will I still have the motivation to try running another race?Will it be a downhill glide or another upslope climb?Why must life be so hard…

So should I start screwing up now?Or is it too late…

Of Another New Year and Resolutions

starsya — Fri, 01 Jan 2010 13:00:28 +0000

So..I’ve never had a proper resolution that I want to stick to before in my entire life.Yeap.I guess it’s not too late to have an aim to work towards at the moment.Well,drifting around was fun while it lasted.I like drifting around, but too much of it already makes me feel tired.

So for this year..Wham!Bham!Kaching!! I’m gonng have a couple of goals set for myself.Applause please for this amazing life changing moment.Thankyouthankyou.LOL!

Anyway here I know.Someone please make sure that I try my best to keep to them.Else,feel free to send me a whack (not physically I hope xp) for not adhering to them.Thanks in advance.There.Now whoever reads this have to do it.

Get a tuition job to offset my living expenses.
Wear more colours.
Write notes after every set of notes covered in school.

There.Not grand but I think it’s do-able.Need money to invest in a new wardrobe selection(But what do I do when my sis sails away?!).Need money to save up for trips and this and that.It’s everyone’s 21st this year.That’s pretty heavy.Hahaha.Nevermind.Once in a lifetime thing.Colours for clothes because I always choose plain boring colours.I don’t do boomz well.I like being quiet,unnoticed thank you very much.But.I’m gonna do colours this year and see if it works.I wanted to write ‘Study hard’ for #3 but that sounds a little too..unmotivating.I always tell myself to study hard.I do.But only when exams are looming overheard like dark clouds holding gallons of water to splash onto the earth.Haha.So.Notes should be helpful.IT MUST BE.I NEED THOSE POINTY GRADES!

Yeap.Basically that’s it for my resolution.

But.What I really hope for this coming 2010 are…

to be able to go for Akita for GSS
to be able to go Aussie with Jo for the environmental monitoring programme
a party where I can invite my friends to
YOG transport usher allocation
Insinyur camp
e2 reunion on 10/10/10

So many things that I want and so many things that I need.I hope to learn something new this year.Well 2009 thought me how to change diapers and shower a baby.2010,should be fun too.Blehh.My sis will be gone sailing for like…half of the year.What am I gonna do.Sianz.

Anyway, happy new year! Hope things will be awesome for you too.=D

Holidays

starsya — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 12:47:10 +0000

Well..Holidays eh..I think I’ve become the usual holiday anime-and-drama-watching-and-manga-reading-and-tenimyu-kyaaa-ing-idiot that I’ve always been.The sleep-late-wake-up-late-and-sit-in-front-of-laptop-idiot that i try not to be.But..it’s hard to kick the habit.*smacks myself*

On another note, went out with huimin to watch gokusen’s last run at vivocity.It was a fun movie.Everyone was giggling at yankumi.Girls squealed whenever kamenashi appeared on screen.I’m serious.SQUEALED! and then giggled.I thought fangirls will be the first to watch when the movie appeared but..there seemed to be some leftovers.Lol.Either that or it’s the millionth time that they were watching the movie.But at least i’m far away from them so i wasn’t that pissed.I actually find it amusing.Kamenashi seems like a cool guy..but..err..i don’t really fancy guys with pretty archy eyebrows..A bit wrong.I think matsujun’s sawada is a much cooler person as compared to ~~onigiri~~ odagiri.

Currently..I have a bunch of phonecalls to make.Need to get 12 train tix to kl.Need to call and book a physiotherapy session in school.Need to call and make appointment to do my hair.Anything else?

I finally bought some clothes.Now i need black jeans.And some more casual wears.I shouldnt wear pretties to school.Not the right place.I think.Oh need new sandals.Lol.So many needs.

Now, need to drag those girls out for a gathering.What a thing to say considering I don’t really wanna be dragged out.Lol.

Oh.Looks like the don’t stock up anymore of pot plushies.I still want a ryoma.Then i’ll buy a ponta and make him pose with it.Told del that if i have eiji i’ll bounce him on my bed.Plushies are fun to play with deshou?Hmm..See if im fated to get one.Lol.

Now that exams are over…

starsya — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 14:17:50 +0000

..I realised i screwed quite a bit of them.Strike that.A LOT.Now it’s time for me to step out of my comfort zone and start doing something else in my life other than studying. That’s because…I think I shouldn’t place high hopes on it anymore.With that, I’m gonna find a plan.

That said, I realised that i am a bit of an introvert.Or maybe a lot more than a bit? Haha.Jia Hui was right in the sense that i regain my energy from being alone. By being alone, I just…be me.No worries on what and how people view me.Do whatever I like, whenever I like.With that, am I doomed for singlehood since I just can’t imagine letting anyone into my world?

Let see..It’s not that I don’t let anyone in, I often show people glimpses of it.Wait.Is there even a ‘My World’ thingy for me? I don’t know.This whole ‘I think I am’ and ‘What people think I am’ is quite complicated. So does ‘what I think I am’ equivalent to ‘who I really am’?

It’s ok if my blog posts don’t sound like the usual me you know.The ‘me’ that you know appears usually when i’m with you.See.Got personalisation one.So special.LOL!

So, maybe that’s why I don’t really like..hardcore cliques.Like everything and everywhere also together.It’s good to have a reaaallllly close bunch of friends.But for me.I need space.I don’t mind being alone with my thoughts.I like being with someone who lets me talk as much as she lets me listen.These kind of people really make me feel at ease.It’s not all about ‘Me Me Me!’ but it’s those people who are really interested in listening too.Any more or any less, i’ll feel really uneasy.

Actually i’m writing this post in a super sleepy mode.Been up since 3am.And something’s bugging me that i hope to solve asap.Without any casualties or side effects.Add both together..You get this rambling post.Feel free to try to psychoanalyse me.I’d love to hear your take on me.=D

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starsya — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 08:44:43 +0000

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Where did the posts go?

starsya — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 14:29:20 +0000

Lol.

Haven’t found time to update my blog.Let me share some of the things=D.

Usher Appreciation Dinner at Jurong Camp
Met Shumin in school and we went together.Apparently we were pretty early.Ignoring the initial slight disappointment we had regarding…the whole thing not being what we had in mind,we joined the queue to get something to bite while waiting for the rest.Not long until we finished eating,Satish called to say that they were all queuing for the food.Joined them.

Well,YS was pretty unhappy about the queue.Lol.He looked murderous.Poor guy must be hungry.Haha.But i find him really funny.Like.So full of expressions and all.Not like his usual emo mood at ndp.Anyway, it was really nice to see those who turned up.They got their food,settled down,then suddenly,they had this awards ceremony.Soon after that,some higher ranked dude went up to give a Closing Speech.We were all like o.O! Haha.It was only 7pm.The whole thingy was supposed to start at 6pm.They barely even finished their food.Lol.That made us *jawdrop* more.Haha.Of course we weren’t that satisfied so we headed over to JP to hang out more.

After getting cheated a bit, tried to look for a place that can fit all 20 of us.Finally found one,bought drinks and..play really lame games.The auntie was like standing there and watching us play.Haha.Finally, it was time to say goodbye.My dad finished work late and he was driving the van, so some of them hitched a ride to yishun.Haha.Sharmila is always high as usual.Too bad I didn’t go for the PR&P dinner.It should be better ya?

The bad news
Well, that day my aunt came down with a fever so my cousin stayed over at my house for some time.But then,we learnt that she got H1N1.It really worried me a lot.She’s pregnant for one thing.Then,some screw-ups happen and my cousin was taken home to be with her parents.Soon enough, the whole family had to go to the hospital for H1N1 treatment.It was really scary.But thank God that everything was fine.Everyone recovered from that.If anything happend to any of them,I don’t think I can take it.Alhamdulillah.

Insinyur Supper Hop
Went over late considering the fasting month already started.BUT!.Most of the freshies weren’t there yet.Well,I think i came with the huge bunch of them.Superstars?Hah.I remembered our seniors insisting that we cook for them.This time round,when i reached,I saw BengHock and Shiquan and the gollum peeps around the bbq pits.Woahh.Anyway,I joined the Gollum side and liked it.haha.I didn’t do any work.The guys were the ones fanning the pit and all.I just waited for the food to be ready and chomp.Haha.

Went to hall16 to shower.That must be the fastest shower time i’ve had.Ok.One of the fastest.In 25mins or so,we walked from hall12 to hall16.SHowered.And walked back.Everyone changed into their Insinyur tees.Phototaking.But this year,it didn’t feel as fun as the previous year.The crowd felt smaller,but at least they stuck to the timing.Oh.No games too.Budget?Hmmm

Anyway,headed to cathay for movie.Roars at the movie selected.It was horrible.Seriously.I can’t imagine why people would pay to watch a lousy storyline with lots of gore movie like Final Destination 4.And FYI,it’s a supper hop.You wanna kill our appetite much?Boos at the movie choice.And the fact that they kept it secret till that night.Waste my money since i didn’t even watch the whole thing.

Being left to our own devices without the GLs,wasn’t that fun.But it was sure nice hanging around with everyone.Haha.Listening to Isaac sprouting nonsense.Quite entertaining.Oh.What I like about insinyur outing,is the…Bus Destination Auction.Haha.You’ll just have to scream the place you wanna go and raise up your hands(or get your friends to help) and decide where the bus will go to.I think it went pretty smoothly.I got onto the bus that went to Yishun&Woodlands.Hehe.Yishun people must stick together~

Reached home around 630a.m.My neighbourhood already got busy.WEnt to bed by 7am.And hibernated the whole day.

Current semester
Currently busy with techcomm experiment.Must bear with it for 2 weeks.Really hope that there’ll be results.Maybe we should check like if it’s possible to not have results.Heh.

Hmm.I’m pretty behind in my lecture note readings and mechanics stuff.Fluid can put in more effore.Env chem is very,informative for 2aus.Haha.I wanna do well for electives.Must get As for them.MUST!!Must have better time management,me.Don’t wanna score badly.Oh.Jap2 is awesome.Magical realism quite interesting.Astro very enlightening.

WIll be a busy semester,but not as busy as the next?Oh well.

I should go read my lab notes soon.Don’t wanna be lost tml.